MuSiC oF mY LiFe

~~Saturday, October 02, 2004~~

Heyz...jus changed my blog outlook to....garfield!!! hahaz...finally decided to change it..yeah..nice? I dun tink its very nice la...but bear with it ok? At least for a couple of months perhaps..unless i've got the mood to sit down and do sth about it again. Hehe...oh..and sorry nu er...i v lazy to add the tagboard today..maybe another day ok? hahaz....

This 2 weeks past by jus lyk tt! My goodness...maybe becos i've got so much to do...that's y..hahaz...as i've mentioned in moi previous blog, no more IS modules alr! at least for tis term la...hahaz..good lo...but exams are coming...OMG...tis coming week gonna have all 3 pract test: Mon-chem, Wed-mst1, Fri-MB....sian diao....ever since CT i realli slacken alr lo..now gotta start to bia again hor...very hard leh....haiyo. But must try....maybe starting from next week baz...now still in recovery period from post-IS projects effect..hahaz...

Haiz...let shiya scold me on msn on Fri...why? Cos after presentations on thursday, i was supposed to meet up wif my close pal at KAP la. Then she act. say she could meet ard 4plus 5pm...so i agreed...den aft tt becos her toopid GP tutor wan her to stay back and she could only meet me ard 6plus...So...she called me..and i was v drained out alr...and she ting de chu lo..from my voice..so after we consider for awhile, we decided not to meet and i shall go hm...altho she sounded quite disappointed la...[ i also felt the same lo]. After, i really went hm...was so tired i slept thru' out my journey but 1/2 way hm..another of my fren called to ask for my help. He wanted me to acc. him go library search the microfilms for articles with him cos he dunno how to...i was v v v reluctant but he's deadline was lyk next wk alr..so jus being helpful, i agreed on the term that i will go hm, bathe alr den go meet him since he needed my favour (rem the fact that my laptop and clothes ain't light at all). In the end, i met him ard 7pm, go lib find his stuff, den go eat den reach hm ard 11plus lor.

Yep..so tis is the whole story and i was scolded...haiz...she said i zhong se qing you...for goodness sake, i din even plan to meet the guy in the1st place lor. And furthermore, he's jus a fren...wad zhong "se" qing you....She say i always make empty promises...which i m not guilty for until recently....becos many tinks jus pop up and i had to turn my frenz down....not as if i lyk lor...the feeling's not good at all lor....another tink to note is that i was meeting up my fren to chat...but another fren need a favour for his project lor...which is more impt...if u really wanna compare the motive for meeting each one... den she said, if she were me, she will wait for my fren...hai...wad the...i was tired lor.

Haiz...but after reflecting...i tink she might be right to a certain extent...cos i realized that i may be wad she'd call it, "an ingrateful chap". Haiz...cos even the time when i stepped out of JC...i left w/o a word...i din not wan to turn back once i walk out of TJ...but i left my frenz crying there....I din not noe tis until recently when 1 of my fren told me...haiz...i rem aft i went to pass my letter to the P, i left w/o telling my class and frenz...and it was during a break in sch...i din noe my class was waiting for me somewhere...and i left lyk tt...then when JJ [ex-jc-pal] went back to the class...he saw my classmates crying...and when he asked...they jus asked him not to bother them..cos they were still in shock tt i jus left lyk tt...in between there were lotsa emotions goin on but i wun touch on tt...but the fact that i made my frenz cry...bothered me...i hate to make my frenz sad....i wan to be the one that brighten up their day[that's y i m such a joker]...but not the reverse...

now i noe why tt day when i was walking out of TJ alone [cos i dun wan anyone to see me go], JJ jus pon the rest of the classes of the day and acc me hm...diaoz..still treat me eat dessert...sian diao.....(i suddenly rem the fact tt aft he acc me hm, he lost his way while travellin hm cos he took the wrong direction..haha) Ok...apart from that funny incident...yeah..i tink i shld change for the better....haiz...i noe that my fren[the one that i was supposed to meet at KAP} is not mad at me at all..cos she said she was at fault too [we chatted on msn yest]..but yeah...maybe i shld've waited la...i tink i cant call myself a worthy fren now baz...maybe as wad 1 of my fren said be4...i've changed...

But trust me, i dun mean too hurt anyone out there. Give me time to change for the better okay? Dun give up on me....

My god..i wrote so much rubbish..ok...shall end here...paiseh if ur eyes are falling out by tis time now! Hehe....

"gei wo duo yi dian shi jian...ying wei shi jian neng zheng ming wo de cun zai...peng you zhi jian bu xu yao you tai duo de yan yu...ping yi ge wei xiao..qian yi qian zui jiao...jiu neng de dao gong ming..bu shi ma?"

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